To my forever missed brother

Oh Craig, my precious & so very missed brother.

I have put off writing you because it is very hard for me to deal with certain things. I feel like it's time now.

I have your picture on top of my fridge & it's the 1st thing you see when you walk into the kitchen. I talk to you everyday. Some of the time I just stare & think of all the memories we have had together. Mom & I took Megan & Maci to see the house we grew up in on Lakeview last weekend. That brought up alot of memories! Like Heidi saving our lives, the crazy neighbors, the huge Halloween party that you got so sick at because of all the sweets you ate, the huge backyard where the baseball teasing went on, & the puppy story. I could go on & on.

It is so hard for me to grasp the fact that I am never going to see your face again. I have so many things going on in my life right now that I wish I could talk to you about. I want your advice & opinion.

The kids & I have been to Beaumont just about every weekend. I have seen Cam & Madi more times over the past month than I have since they were born. I love it! Megan, Maci, & Chris are closer to them now too. They also keep in touch with Mandy & her boys.

A few days after you passed I was at moms and couldn't sleep. It's odd because I have never written poems & this just came to me. I have had it in a drawer this whole time but I want to share it now so that everyone knows how I feel about my one & only brother. You would think I'm such a dork for writing this but here it goes:

When I close my eyes all I see is your face
It hurts so bad, but I know you're in a better place
I don't know how to move on in this world without you
I want comfort & reassurance which is all around me
But it's just not the same, I want you so badly
You were always my idol & that will never change
I love you sweet brother, words can't describe my pain
You truely were the best man I ever knew
I always wished I could be just like you
I will take care of mom so don't you worry
Rest in peace my brother
Love you always & forever

Love, Leslie